my friends are making me feel guilty for not going out

I have quickly become so addicted to blogging it's ridiculous. No one even reads this.

So it's 4 weeks until exams and my friends want to go out for Tanya's birthday. From the beginning I've been saying I can't go. I have to work.

They won't stop saying how I HAVE to go, it's unfair if I don't go, Tanya comes to everything.

Thing is, out of everyone I am literally doing the worst. I know that when they're all doing what they want to be doing in their lives and I'm stuck in a dead end AGAIN, I'm not going to remember the time I went out for Tanya's birthday and say it was worth it.

I cannot go, my guilty conscience will not allow me to go.

I am really quite frustrated with my friends for not understanding.