Asha

Originally written: 05/05/2013 15:50

Something that pissed me off then and still pisses me off today when I think about it: it was year 12 and I was madly in LIKE with Kris. It felt like the whole world (aka all the kids our age) thought it was their business. This all stems from the time Asha badgered me about him. Alright she wasn’t badgering me but it went something like this.

Asha: Soo a little birdie told me you like Kris.
Me: Err..
Asha: …do you?
Me: No.
Asha: Well I’m just saying he’s a bad person I recommend you stay away from him.
Me: Err..ok..

Now to this day I don’t know who told her. I’d told Hari (a best friend of mine at the time), don’t know if I’d had told Matt (another old friend) yet, don’t think I had, but I’m guessing it was Hari or Kris himself. Closer to the time, I’d thought it was Hari but now thinking ‘bout it I’m thinking it was Kris. Obviously I’d felt betrayed by Hari but it didn’t matter so much ‘cos I was so infatuated with Kris (course at the time, I felt I was replying to her truthfully as I was in the stage where I was desperately trying to convince myself I didn’t like him).

Point is, the whole situation was hard enough as it was. I liked Kris so much and he’d never felt the same. He’d always been with one girl or another. It sucked soo much (sorry to sound so much like a teenager but it really did).

And then it was like it was everybody’s business who I liked. I hated it. I felt stupid enough.

I’m trying to find a good conclusion to this. I was thinking along the lines of “flash-forward 3 years (jheez has it only been that long?!) and I’m in the most wonderful relationship with the most amazing guy..and other nauseatingly corny stuff.” Course, that’s not how it is. I’m a doing a degree I do not like, very single and not happy about it. Flopping my exams and by the way it’s going, going to flop the next ones too.

I know that if I sorted myself out with work everything else would fall into place too. Literally everything revolves around it. Everything would be better. It wouldn’t matter that I don’t have a boyfriend and even then it would only be a matter of time ‘til I got one. But we’ll see, never lose hope right? (Should mention there’s six weeks ‘til exams..not good.)

I feel like I should mention how I have awesome friends, but now thinking about it they’re hard to maintain. Maybe friendship is overrated. Now sisterhood, that’s something special. J

Any-ho, ramblings complete, this is Kira, signing off! Ciao!