Blue and Bored

I've been putting a lot of short posts up lately; lots of pictures, random thoughts that occur to me. Well, I'm blue and bored at the moment (and taking a "break" from studying..inverted commas because I'm ALWAYS on a break) so I figured I'd write.

Only problem with that is, I haven't got a specific topic in mind and when I'm topic-less I ramble which is pointless, boring and stupid.

I'll update on what I've been up to (which is nothing). I've been writing a lot on fictionpress because I got 2 reviews! Positive ones as well, which is amazing. So that was really encouraging and I wrote more..which brought no reviews..But of course my attention is so divided, between writing and not working so nothing I've written is great.

I watched a couple of episode of  "The Undateables", a show about people with disabilities and such finding love. It's very uplifting and gives you hope that you can find love too. If they can, then of course you can! That sounds very degrading but I don't mean that in a rude way at all..even though I'm sure it's hard to look at that in any way but rude..

Watching this show also made me more open minded, thinking along the lines of: I could date a tourettes guy. Sure. Why not. Of course I'm well aware how truly challenging dating anyone with a disability would be,  it's not just as easy as that, I know that.

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Just received a call from my sister..see I hate writing depressing posts. I mean I haven't written many to be honest, that one depressing one that I did write, only problem with it was that it was SO depressing. Suicidal, even though I wasn't suicidal it really sounded like I was.

I just feel really hopeless.

I should explain, she called me checking up on my work. I've done none, exaggerated about the amount I have done and she was still understandably disappointed.

I just feel very hopeless, too hopeless to work. I have no motivation.