Up in the Air

I just watched Up in the Air, the George Clooney film. It was good. The ending was a bit..but I guess it was good. It was about a guy who fires people for a living who has this whole "philosophy" for living thing. He loves his solitary life, his life without attachments-to people, objects..anything really. I can connect with that.

Then in the inevitable dawning of realisation; when he realises he has been living his whole life wrong he says:
"Think of your fondest memories. Were you alone?
 When you were thinking those awful thoughts..were you alone."
Hearing that I feel like an idiot. I isolate myself, brutally. I bring my..depression on myself.

It's not too late for me, but even as I think these things my instinct is to isolate myself longer. Just a little longer, just a little longer then I'll socialise with people. Do I make excuses for myself?

I know I have to work and sort myself out. The words I utter to myself everyday. But I guess I also need to live. I'm struggling to live and I'm figuring out, even though I already should have known, a good step towards living may be to just, make myself be with people, enjoy it. Then I guess the living comes naturally.