trying

It breaks my heart that I try more with him than anyone else in my life and no one has deserved it less.

I'M BACK!

How fast a year goes..well it hasn't exactly been a year, 9 months. It seems little has changed BUT one major thing changed. I had a quick reluctant glance at my previous post which induced minor giggles. I was so desperate for any sort of male attention and low and behold, seek and ye shall receive!

I was measuring up the tones between my last post and now and it's interesting to see that I seem to feel better now. I was terribly bored last time and it's amazing what a little distraction can do for you. Rich you're really lifted me up somehow, I gotta thank you for that. I must admit this is the first positive thought I've had about him. I have been cursing him from day one and it took having an authentic look back at life before to realise, you did help me. You did make me happy.
And now I'm rapidly thinking am I going to fall back into dire depression/boredom again?! No I have Kit now :) Awh Kit, yay.